Open Letter To Myself About “Non-Racist” Whites. OH And #BoycottBookies

Whites

I, typically, contain myself to black spaces. I feel safe there. I may not always agree with my skinfolk but I love and trust them. However, I don’t trust whites. Not progressive whites. Not liberal whites. Not Gary Owens. Not Kim Kardashian. Not any of you. And I have white folks who I fuck with HEAVY. Not many but they exist. I trust a black dude dressed in all black, wearing a hoodie and shades, with a gun and a sign that reads, “Bitch, I’m gonna rob you.”  more than I trust white folks. I am being completely transparent here. As vulnerable as I can possibly be. This IS NOT A PLEA for your empathy or support. This open letter isn’t for whites so much as this is therapeutic for me. I’m tired.

It’s difficult to be in the same spaces with you and not feel resentment and anger. EVERY DAY. I get it. You didn’t do anything. You’re right. That’s a HUGE issue I have with you. You friend us on Facebook and follow us on Twitter. You’ve placed yourself in every aspect of our lives.  Yet, you’re eerily silent when innocent black people are murdered by the hands of folks which you tell us to respect and obey.

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While black folks invite “cool white folks” to “faux cookouts” and trade Raven-Symone, Cam Newton and Stacey Dash; I don’t make room for you. I’m not amused by your whitesplaining of race relations and life. It doesn’t matter the number of black folks with whom you interact. I have nothing for you. You are a necessary evil in this world. Some black folks, gladly, declare that you aren’t all bad. I don’t agree. I’m unwilling to give you a chance. Even the white people I care about leave me feeling  empty. Given history and white people’s track record globally, it’s not difficult to feel this way.

Which leads me to this, Bookie’s is the bar where my baby sister threw her 40th birthday bash. The white owner had a lot to say about an innocent black man who was murdered by a racist cop in Oklahoma. He, happily, takes the money of people whom he doesn’t respect. THAT.  You see, as a Detroiter, I’ve always heard the hateful shit whites have said about my city. However, when Detroit wins; white suburbanites and transplanted hipsters jump on black bandwagons. Reppin’ the 313  while you live in Romeo. Fuck you.

I’m unmoved by your faux patriotism and grandstanding about all the “good blacks” you know which really translates to the 2 who work with you. You may or may not invite them to your home and saying, “Bye Felicia”, doesn’t make you down.

Openly racist whites don’t scare me so much as you do with your “colorblind” rhetoric. You do so much to prove how much of a non racist you are by towing the line with us that it surprisingly comes off racist. That’s because it is.

 

K. Araújo, a native Detroiter, is a cross between Claire Huxtable, Rosie Pérez and Millie Jackson. Widow, professional dragger of filth and Mami to the dopest Ethiopian EVER, she is the Editor in Chief of "Negra With Tumbao" and a Staff Writer for "The Urban Twist". Keka has been known to shake what her mama gave her, is the hell and high water, an expert salsera and cussologist with a penchant for the finer things in life and is and forever shall be- unapologetically black.
  • nerak

    I appreciate your honesty and i cannot blame you for the way you feel. Present and past history has shown the clear disrespect white america has for black people, but i see it has a human issue. As a black woman i trust no one. Not only do we have to bear the weight of racism from whites we also have to deal with issues from the black community. Until we begin for show respect for ourselves no one will respect us. I am disgusted by racist cops targeting and murdering black people, its been going on for generations and now the media is finally putting a spotlight on it. Unfortunately our communities are battered with violence and drugs. While cops are shooting innocent men, there are many who are not innocent. We have to fix our communities ourselves without begging the cops for help to curb violence. It begins with how we treat our children. Im always amazed to see how religious many black people are, ready to dress up for church and give money during offering while there are homes less than a block away where kids need food and clothes. Where kids need help w thier homework, where confusee mothers are raising kids on their own. Instead people are gathering in a building singing praise. If black lives really matter we need to be the first ones to act like it. Many ppl already distrust the police but they trust that nigga down the block slinging dope and ready to have a baby with him even though he will probably get arrested and wont be there to help raise the kids. That kind of guy does more harm to the community as a whole. The black man is the key to helping our communities. The fear of black man is also whats getting him killed. Recently in austin texas a black cop killes an unarmed naked man who ran towards him after asking him stop moving. Black people hurt black people this can be seen in our black communities and countries that are populated with mostly black people. We almost cant ask people who brought here as slaves for respect we have to work towards respect. Now i can’t tell you who to trust all i can say is trust no one

    • Numbah5

      Respectability politics have gotten us NOWHERE. People seem to forget that you can address more than one issue at a time, it’s not a one or the other scenario.

  • nerak

    I think you can judge a group by how it treats their women and children. On the surface the black community treats women and kids pretty badly. Many black ppl are ready to call a woman a ho, b, or thot. Many of our women hate their own hair. Many of our men are quick to say they pay child support even though paying child support doesn’t mean ur raising ur kid. Many brag about money and new clothes even though ppl in their own families are struggling. If we can get up and march for an innocent black man shot by cops why cant we use that same attitude to fix our communities.

    • Let’s not derail THIS topic though.. lol

      • nerak

        Distrust for whites is one thing but understanding that this distrust doesnt stop at white ppl is important. Many of us are destroying our own communities

  • Numbah5

    Negra, I find myself feeling more and more like you. Each day I come home from work and with a heavy sigh state that “I’m so over Keeblers and their Keebler ish”. I’m tired of their willful ignorance, their whitesplaining of every aspect of black life, their hypocrisy, their very essence. Its to the point that I don’t even deal with them at work unless I have to and even then, I keep it brief.

  • nerak

    Living as a black person in america is like being a battered wife in an abusive relationship. What do we tell women who are being physically and mentally abused. We tell them to leave the situation. Easier said then done. We cannot allow this abuse to break us. I agree with tumbao i dont trust white ppl but i also dont trust the middle eastern guy at the corner store or the Asian lady at the hair store. I dont trust my black and hispanic coworkers. You’re not supposed to trust anyone. We cant sit around as battered wives and beg to not be hit. We need to uplift our young to revitalize our neighborhoods and schools instead of begging for someone else to do it for us and it begins with distrust. It begins with understanding that the abuse will continue unless we pull ourselves up by our bootstraps. We need to teach our kids that designer clothes and sneakers dont matter. Alot of money flows out of our hands into their hands. We need to prepare our kids to be business owners and to buy locally or from minority owned businesses

    • Oh absolutely! I include everybody but whites especially given the times. We all we got.. literally!

  • Val

    Wow. very honest post. I think this sums up the way a lot of us fee, NWT. Very insightful.

  • Dominique Thomas

    New to your blog, and so grateful you were mentioned on the African American Wiccan Society Twitter. You say all the things I want to say, but too timid to do so. I’m called that often, and quite frankly I’m sick of it. Being shy doesn’t make me timid, but I guess that’s how people see me. I hope I can find the strength in myself to do what you are doing with this amazing blog. Please keep the posts coming!